John Mark McMillan

Lyrics

THE SONG INSIDE THE SOUNDS OF BREAKING DOWN: DELUXE REISSUE
Digitally Remastered + Remixed
Coming September 4
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TRACK LISTING:
1. Make You Move
2. Alive
3. Ashes and Flames
4. Breaking Down
5. Kiss Your Feet
6. Closer
7. Setting Suns
8. I Am A Temple
9. Next To You
10. Walking In My Sleep
11. How He Loves
12. Dancing On The Doors **
13. Hold On **
14. How He Loves (Alternate) **

** Indicates an unreleased track

All Songs by John Mark McMillan
Produced / Mixed by Elijah Moseley at Threshing Floor Studios
Mastered by Drew Lavyne
Music by: John Mark McMillan, James Duke, Al Sergal, Joel Khouri, J. Andrew Kurzweg, Jeremiah Bowser, Frank Albert, Sarah McMillan, Molly Williams

Make You Move

Would you save me for a song
If the music was where we’d meet
Would you save another dance for me
Would you save my soul
For the chance that I could know you now

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

Would you save me for a song
If I didn’t have the words to say
Would you listen to me anyway
Would you help me out
For the chance that I could know you now
I would bury my pride in the ground
If I’m running then I don’t know how
I’m ever going to get back home

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

Oh I!

I just want to touch you
I just want to touch you
I just want to touch you

Alive

All my skin like porcelain
Crack beneath the pressure of your hands again
I guess I’ve been thinking that it’s been too long
Since I fell down hard
And bled my heart all over you
But maybe I never recovered from the last one

What if I could be
Something more than me
They say that I got a disease
Of the human kind
Maybe all I know is
In your arms and in your eyes
I’m more than alive

Well all I have to say
About these serious days
And the condition of my heart
Is they’re both still as much a mystery to me
And they both get so hard
When I forget what it’s like just to die in your eyes
And when I live just to live in your arms
Well, they say that a man can never go home
But I just can’t get out of your front yard

What if I could be
Something more than me
They say that I got a disease
Of the human kind
Maybe all I know is
In your arms and in your eyes
I’m more than alive

Ashes and Flames

You and I meet
On the shores of the broken
You swallow the ocean
I swallow my pride
Only to see
The way that I need you
Is more than I knew
I ever could

Cause in between the ashes and the flames
Is a cry an awkward silence
Could never contain
And the falling of my hammers
And the writhing of my pain
Is just not as real as the way
That you’re calling my name

I can’t help thinking
That the way that you want me
And the ghost that haunts me
Are one and the same
Cause you stand at my window
At night while I’m sleeping
There’s not a promise I’m keeping
That could ever repay you

In between the ashes and the flames
There’s a song that burns brighter
Than radio waves
About the remnants of my idols
And the shadow of my shame
About how they scatter like the rain and I can’t stop crying
Cause you won’t stop calling my name
Calling my name
Calling my name up from the ashes

Breaking Down

I’m making plans to waste my life on you
I’m making plans to waste my life on you
Cause New York City and Hollywood combined
They ain’t got enough light
To make me want change my mind about you

Cause I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

I’m Mary Magdalene and tonight is a bottle of perfume
I’m Mary Magdalene and tonight is a bottle of perfume
There’s not enough dignity to hold me now
When I know your going to meet me here
There’s not enough gravity
To keep me away from you

Cause I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

So meet me here
Where we shine like gold
Like the light beneath the embers
Of the burning coals
And I will spill my bottle
Like in days of old
On the song that bleeds from the breaking down

I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

Kiss Your Feet

I dreamed I kissed your feet
Between the cigarette butts
On the side of fourteenth street
I got down on my hands and my knees
With an alabaster jar

I dreamed I’d bleed with your praises
Just to make the world
Smell like your grace again
I got down on my hands and my knees again

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

Good morning brokenness
You know you’ve cut me to the bone
Like one of those days in the middle of the winter
The kind that you can’t run away from
And we’ve been here for so long
But I found a way to appease you
Inside this alabaster jar

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

And all my afflictions
They’re only light ones anyway now
And all my afflictions
They’re only light ones anyway now

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

Closer

Come closer
Closer to me
Find me broken
Find me bleeding
I need more now than a fairy tale god
Who lives in a book
I need someone real

Would you come
Would you come
Closer to me now

Come closer
Closer to me
Find me broken
Find me on my knees
I need more now
Than philosophy
Some god in outer space
Doesn’t mean anything to me

Would you come
Would you come
Closer to me now

Son of David
Don’t pass me by
I am naked
I’m poor and I’m blind

Setting Suns

When everything’s said and done
You’re all I really have
In the midst of these setting suns
The city lights at best
Are portraits of my friends
But they don’t make amends
For this ridiculous mess

So I will float on
Every word you said
When the water of my ghosts
They rise above my head
And I will stand up on your back
In the middle of this sea
When collectors of my debts
They come to sink their teeth

And it’s all I can think about now
Is how good you are to me

This body is a hole
My flesh one shallow grave
I am six feet below myself
And at my best
I still deserve to die
But I’ll be glorified
In this ridiculous mess

And it’s all I can think about now
Is how good you are to me

I Am A Temple

Deep inside me
There’s this burning
That just won’t let me go
You are my fire
You are my righteousness
You are my rock n’ roll

I wish I could fit you
Down inside my chest God
I wish that I could swallow you whole
I’d wrap you up
In a blanket of my skin
And you could call my body home

I am a temple
My body is a temple
I am a temple

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

I can’t get over how quickly you recover
The pieces of my heart as they shatter
Cause in your hands I am
More than just a brand new man
And all my falling down now
It just don’t matter

I am a temple
My body is a temple
I am a temple

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

Next To You

Without you I’m just
Water and dust
A disaster a face and a name
Who am I kidding
With out you I’m nothing at all

You catch when I fall
You return all my calls
And you’re never not around
When I need you
And I always do

On my own
I m more than just alone
I’m colder than religion
I’m colder than stone
Without you I’m
Another waste of time
Like words that only rhyme
But aren’t making any sense

Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breathe without you anymore

Without you I’m left
With just rocks in my chest
Aches and pains that will not recess
The worst is
Without you I’ve got nothing left to say
You sweeten my days with that light amber haze
And you never could get away
When I need you
And I always need you

On my own
I’m more than just alone
I’m colder than religion
I’m colder than stone
Without you I’m
Another waste of time
Like words that only rhyme
But aren’t making any sense

Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breathe without you any more

Walking In My Sleep

I feel like I’ve been walking in my sleep
Digging trenches in the pavement
With the soles of my feet
And I feel like I’ve been running on gasoline
I was so cold before I met you
I was as cold as a machine

So won’t you stay
Stay with me now
The cynical people
Of the world can drown
In a wake of your kindness
Beneath the weight of your grace
It’s more than I can take
And just walk away

I feel like I’ve been walking in my sleep
Chasing shadows, throwing punches
Like stones into the sea
So tell me haven’t I been breathing all these years
Was I a ghost before I met you
Or was I even real

How He Loves

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath
The weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these
Afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize how beautiful you are
And how great your affections are for me

Oh how he loves us so
Oh how he loves us
How he loves us so

Yeah he loves us
Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves

We are his portion
And he is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
And my heart burns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way

That he loves us
Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves

Hold On To

You came dressed up like a sinner
So you drank my shame and you gave yourself away?I will lay beneath weight of this unrequited grace
that laid down in my place
There is a hope that will not disappoint you no
Will not let you down, will not let you down

I will not be moved
I’ll hold on to you

You grow beauty in my ashes
Sunlight in my sorrow
A garland for depression
You paint portraits on my mourning
Of hope and glory
With Oil and with joy
There is a hope that will not disappoint you no
Will not let you down, will not let you down

You, who are my hope
I will hold on to
You, who are my hope
I will hold on to

Dancing on the Doors

See the wall
See the writing on it
See the wind
See the one who rides upon it
See the mighty and the high all hang their head

He burns like the rage
Of a firmament fire
Falls with the weight
Of a jealous desire
Like a downpour knocking on the door
Of the dead

Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion

Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion
This is love

Hear the song sung
by the fiery tongues
Hear the bending bows
of the blood bought sons
Hear their voices in the flood
And lift your head

See the night roll over for the day and
See the movement of the heavenly parading
Like a downpour dancing on the doors
Of the sleeping and the dead

He comes
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion

It’s
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion
This is love
This is love
This is love

How He Loves (Alt Version)