Lyrics

“BORDERLAND”
Album releases on March 04, 2014 

TRACK LISTING ::

01] HOLY GHOST
02] LOVE AT THE END
03] GUNS / NAPOLEON
04] FUTURE / PAST
05] BORDERLAND
06] COUNTING ON
07] MONSTERS TALK
08] TONGUES OF FIRE
09] SILVER SHORE
10] HEART RUNS
11] VISCERAL

HOLY GHOST 

Who are we sometimes I wonder
Mercenaries or lovers
On this side of the thunder
It can be awful hard to know

Sell our love for the paycheck or
Spend the night on the freight deck
For all the dues that we collect
Our hearts can be overdrawn

Dead in the water
Like lamb to the slaughter
If the wind doesn’t sing her song
And I’m speaking in tongues
Cause I need a Holy Ghost

The geeks they can smell when you’re coming
Even out in the cold
They’ll wait you out yeah
They’ll grind you down
But they’re gonna get what they’re owed

I know the red thread unravels
I know you’re blue and you’re black
But there’s still time if you don’t mind
The way that the odds are stacked

Dead in the water
Lamb to the slaughter
If the wind doesn’t sing her song
And I’m speaking in tongues
Cause I need a Holy Ghost

LOVE AT THE END
Out of the gaslight
Off the roads we’ve traveled on
Down by the wayside
Against the sheen of a Babylon

I’ve seen an empire
Taste the tempest of a gathering strong
But I found love at the end of the world
My rabbit’s running
On the street hot heels of Rome
My hour’s coming to reconcile with the dawn

I’m on the brink
I’m on the brink
I’m on the brink
But I found love at the end of the world

Tell the reaper
Tell the repo man
I’ve got nothing that belongs to him
Ruin pushes rubble in the city of sin
But I found love at the end of the world

Out of the goodnight
I was born into your arms
Like you’re my country
Like you’re the hills where I belong

Out of that goodnight (I’m on the brink)
I was born into your arms (I’m on the brink)
You are my country (I’m on the brink)
Like the hills where I found
Love at the end of the world

Tell the reaper
Tell the repo man
I’ve got nothing that belongs to him
Ruin pushes rubble in the city of sin
But I found love at the end of the world

GUNS / NAPOLEON

You’re sinking all my ships
You’re climbing all my fences
The storm upon my gate
The breach in my defenses

Like the sun against the morning
You set your face against the doors in
All the houses where I run
And I’m laying down my guns

And you keep coming on
Like Napoleon
And I’ll lose my head and throne
In the bloody revolution

You fill the hollows of the halls
In the houses where I walk
You’re hanging pictures on the walls

In the houses where I haunt
You’re standing on my harbor
You’re landing on my shore
I’m handing down my armor
I’m landing on my sword

On the brink of kingdom come
And I’m standing in the flood
Of everything I ever was
And I’m laying down my guns

And you keep coming on
Like Napoleon
And I’ll lose my head and throne
In the bloody revolution

You fill the hollows of the halls
In the houses where I walk
You’re hanging pictures on the walls
In the houses where I haunt

[Love can break your bones
Broken bones sing songs
I’m laying down my guns
So I can sing along]

FUTURE / PAST

You hold the reigns on the sun and the moon
Like horses driven by kings
You cover the mountains, the valleys below
With the breadth of your mighty wings

All treasures of wisdom
And things to be known
Are hidden inside your hand
And in this fortunate turn of events
You ask me to be your friend

And you,
You are my first
You are my last
You are my future and my past

The constellations are swimming inside
The breadth of your desire
So where could I run, where could I hide
From your heart’s jealous fire

All treasures of wisdom
And things to be known
Are hidden inside your hand
And in this fortunate turn of events
You ask me to be your friend

And you,
You are my first
You are my last
You are my future and my past
You are the beginning and the end

BORDERLAND

Living in the borderland
I don’t feel like a boy, I don’t feel like a man
In the things I don’t understand
Things like love, like the law
Like the law of the jungle

Are we all animals
Are we all animals sharpening
Our teeth and claws
Stocking up on cannonballs
Living like nobody knows
They can’t hold on to love
And live by the law, the law of the jungle

Help me Holy Jesus
Won’t you show me how to live
I’ve got monsters at my table
I’ve got Bibles bent like shivs

Help me Holy Lord
I see the light of heaven’s porch
But so many of us are born here
Outside your chain link fence

Living in the borderland
You gotta fend for yourself,
Let the dogs eat the other man
Living in the borderland
You gotta take what you get,
Gotta get what you can

Are we all dangerous
Are we all dangerous lost boys shoring up
Pockets full of fairy dust
Suffering the wanderlust
They all get crushed without love
By the law, the law of the jungle

Living in the borderland
Are you going to fight like a boy,
Gonna run like a man

Living in the borderland
Gotta take what you get,
Gotta get what you can

But you can’t hold on
Can’t hold on to love
You can’t hold on
You can’t hold on and live
By the Law

COUNTING ON

When the night stops pushing up the day
When the miles drop me on the open planes
When I’ve lost grace with the lady of the dawn
You’re what I’m counting on
You’re what I’m counting on

Where the hounds run
Track me in my sleep
When I can’t trust the company I keep
When I’ve push passed the point of pressing on
You’re what I’m counting on
You’re what I’m counting on

I’m throwing stones
Up at your window
I’m casting shadows
Upon your door

Where the bombs break
Right outside my door
And I can’t shake the onset of my wars
When the stakes are raised
We hold the hand we’ve drawn
You’re what I’m counting on

I’m throwing stones
Up at your window
I’m casting shadows
Upon your door

MONSTERS TALK

Monsters want to talk to me
No quarter drawn by lawyers on a crimson sea
Weep like willows, break like waves
We are fragile creatures on collision
With our judgement days

Nightbird says she knows my name
But she don’t call it out to me
Beneath the rubble like the way you say it
Weep like willows, break like waves
We are fragile creatures on collision
With our judgement days

Monsters want to crowd my room
But on the night the cold wars bloom
You’re the only roof I’m standing under
Weep like willows, break like waves
We are fragile creatures on collision
With our judgement days

Your heart smolders in the marrow of the night
Bitter waters cannot quench my thirsty fire
Still, I want to do what’s right
But I can’t get no sleep
Can I stand beside the way you love tonight
Can I stand
Can I stand beside the way you love tonight
Can I stand
Can I stand beside the way you love

TONGUES OF FIRE

The nights we spoke with tongues of fire
The days we walked out on the wire
We were young and we were not afraid

The angels whispered in our ears
To tell us what the hilltop hears
Beholden to the promises we made
When we were young and we were not afraid

River waters moved inside
Our bodies like the ocean tide
The spirit swam the hallows of our veins
The years they roared like waves down on

The rocky shores we stand upon
And beat against our banks with iron rage
When we were young and we were not afraid

We can still push up against those pillars
We can light those foxes tails ablaze
Nighttime still pushes up against the sun
Where we grow young and we are not afraid

And you, you gotta find your way back home
Out of the woods
And you, you don’t have to hold your own
You gotta find your way back home
Out of the woods
They’re gonna smoke you out
They’re gonna find you out
Out of the woods

SILVER SHORE

Billowing hills
Shoulders of steel
Hide behind faces of glass

The street light valleys
The midnight tallies
Recollections of our past
These thoughts of home

And tonight we sleep
With lions all around
In furnaces of fire we sleep
Tonight we sleep
With lions all around
In furnaces of fire we sleep

We’re ghosts inside of our bodies
Naked inside of our clothes
We’re all terrified of the writhing ocean tide
But our pockets are all full of hope
These thoughts of home

And tonight we sleep
With lions all around
In furnaces of fire we sleep
Tonight we sleep
With lions all around
In furnaces of fire we sleep

We were born on heaven’s silver shores
I know it in my heart there’s more to be afforded

Did I hear you in the driving rain
I swear somebody was calling my name again

We were born on heaven’s silver shores
I know it in my heart there’s more
To be afforded

We were made for the other side of the lake
It’s more than we can take
The fever’s gonna break for us

HEART RUNS

Like deer to the pool
I’m coming after you
Like a thirsty animal
My heart is for your love

Like Jonah from the deep
I’m coming out of my sleep
To find the secrets that you keep
Is the only thing worth rising for

From the dirt you’ve drawn me out
And you draw me out again
I’m coming back from the dead
I’m coming out of my skin

And you are everything my heart wants
Everything my heart wants
And my heart runs
My heart runs after you

Like breakers on the shore
You’re knocking on my door
Like the deepest places in you
Calling to the fountains of my soul

From the dirt you’ve drawn me out
And you draw me out again
I’m coming back from the dead
I’m coming out of my skin

And you are everything my heart wants
Everything my heart wants
And my heart runs
My heart runs after you

(So) My heart runs
(So) My heart runs
(So) My heart runs
My heart runs after you

VISCERAL

A visceral love runs the length of our veins
As we sit above the miles of pain
Till all of our fears become skinny ones
And from your window I can see a kingdom come

Hearts will wage war, but in the settling dust
What remains at the end of us
Our skinny fears for our cold resolve
When from your window I can see the ages dawn

Cinder and stone (brick and mortar)
Everybody folds (up against the water)
Cinder and stone (brick and mortar)
Everybody folds, everybody folds

Hearts will wage war, but in the settling dust
What remains at the end of us
Our skinny fears for our cold resolve
When from your rooftop I can see the ages dawn

Cinder and stone (brick and mortar)
Everybody folds (up against the water)
Cinder and stone (brick and mortar)
Everybody folds, everybody folds

Memories rust and trophies fade
In the remnants of our glory days
Will we regret the thing that we’ve made
From your table I can see a better way

 

THE SONG INSIDE THE SOUNDS OF BREAKING DOWN: DELUXE REISSUE
Digitally Remastered + Remixed

TRACK LISTING:
1. Make You Move
2. Alive
3. Ashes and Flames
4. Breaking Down
5. Kiss Your Feet
6. Closer
7. Setting Suns
8. I Am A Temple
9. Next To You
10. Walking In My Sleep
11. How He Loves
12. Dancing On The Doors **
13. Hold On **
14. How He Loves  (Alternate) **

** Indicates an unreleased track

All Songs by John Mark McMillan
Produced / Mixed by Elijah Moseley at Threshing Floor Studios
Mastered by Drew Lavyne
Music by: John Mark McMillan, James Duke, Al Sergal, Joel Khouri, J. Andrew Kurzweg, Jeremiah Bowser, Frank Albert, Sarah McMillan, Molly Williams

 

Make You Move

Would you save me for a song
If the music was where we’d meet
Would you save another dance for me
Would you save my soul
For the chance that I could know you now

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

Would you save me for a song
If I didn’t have the words to say
Would you listen to me anyway
Would you help me out
For the chance that I could know you now
I would bury my pride in the ground
If I’m running then I don’t know how
I’m ever going to get back home

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

I just want touch you
I just want to make you move
I can’t get over you
The way you slide into the room

Oh I!

I just want to touch you
I just want to touch you
I just want to touch you

 

Alive

All my skin like porcelain
Crack beneath the pressure of your hands again
I guess I’ve been thinking that it’s been too long
Since I fell down hard
And bled my heart all over you
But maybe I never recovered from the last one

What if I could be
Something more than me
They say that I got a disease
Of the human kind
Maybe all I know is
In your arms and in your eyes
I’m more than alive

Well all I have to say
About these serious days
And the condition of my heart
Is they’re both still as much a mystery to me
And they both get so hard
When I forget what it’s like just to die in your eyes
And when I live just to live in your arms
Well, they say that a man can never go home
But I just can’t get out of your front yard

What if I could be
Something more than me
They say that I got a disease
Of the human kind
Maybe all I know is
In your arms and in your eyes
I’m more than alive

 

Ashes and Flames

You and I meet
On the shores of the broken
You swallow the ocean
I swallow my pride
Only to see
The way that I need you
Is more than I knew
I ever could

Cause in between the ashes and the flames
Is a cry an awkward silence
Could never contain
And the falling of my hammers
And the writhing of my pain
Is just not as real as the way
That you’re calling my name

I can’t help thinking
That the way that you want me
And the ghost that haunts me
Are one and the same
Cause you stand at my window
At night while I’m sleeping
There’s not a promise I’m keeping
That could ever repay you

In between the ashes and the flames
There’s a song that burns brighter
Than radio waves
About the remnants of my idols
And the shadow of my shame
About how they scatter like the rain and I can’t stop crying
Cause you won’t stop calling my name
Calling my name
Calling my name up from the ashes

 

Breaking Down

I’m making plans to waste my life on you
I’m making plans to waste my life on you
Cause New York City and Hollywood combined
They ain’t got enough light
To make me want change my mind about you

Cause I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

I’m Mary Magdalene and tonight is a bottle of perfume
I’m Mary Magdalene and tonight is a bottle of perfume
There’s not enough dignity to hold me now
When I know your going to meet me here
There’s not enough gravity
To keep me away from you

Cause I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

So meet me here
Where we shine like gold
Like the light beneath the embers
Of the burning coals
And I will spill my bottle
Like in days of old
On the song that bleeds from the breaking down

I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

I’m breaking down
I don’t even care if there’s anyone else around
Cause I’m breaking down
I always fall to pieces whenever you’re around

 

Kiss Your Feet

I dreamed I kissed your feet
Between the cigarette butts
On the side of fourteenth street
I got down on my hands and my knees
With an alabaster jar

I dreamed I’d bleed with your praises
Just to make the world
Smell like your grace again
I got down on my hands and my knees again

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

Good morning brokenness
You know you’ve cut me to the bone
Like one of those days in the middle of the winter
The kind that you can’t run away from
And we’ve been here for so long
But I found a way to appease you
Inside this alabaster jar

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

And all my afflictions
They’re only light ones anyway now
And all my afflictions
They’re only light ones anyway now

And I’m crawling on the floor
Just to find you now
To tell you how I feel I’m falling all over myself

 

Closer

Come closer
Closer to me
Find me broken
Find me bleeding
I need more now than a fairy tale god
Who lives in a book
I need someone real

Would you come
Would you come
Closer to me now

Come closer
Closer to me
Find me broken
Find me on my knees
I need more now
Than philosophy
Some god in outer space
Doesn’t mean anything to me

Would you come
Would you come
Closer to me now

Son of David
Don’t pass me by
I am naked
I’m poor and I’m blind

Setting Suns

When everything’s said and done
You’re all I really have
In the midst of these setting suns
The city lights at best
Are portraits of my friends
But they don’t make amends
For this ridiculous mess

So I will float on
Every word you said
When the water of my ghosts
They rise above my head
And I will stand up on your back
In the middle of this sea
When collectors of my debts
They come to sink their teeth

And it’s all I can think about now
Is how good you are to me

This body is a hole
My flesh one shallow grave
I am six feet below myself
And at my best
I still deserve to die
But I’ll be glorified
In this ridiculous mess

So I will float on
Every word you said
When the water of my ghosts
They rise above my head
And I will stand up on your back
In the middle of this sea
When collectors of my debts
They come to sink their teeth

And it’s all I can think about now
Is how good you are to me

 

I Am A Temple

Deep inside me
There’s this burning
That just won’t let me go
You are my fire
You are my righteousness
You are my rock n’ roll

I wish I could fit you
Down inside my chest God
I wish that I could swallow you whole
I’d wrap you up
In a blanket of my skin
And you could call my body home

I am a temple
My body is a temple
I am a temple

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

I can’t get over how quickly you recover
The pieces of my heart as they shatter
Cause in your hands I am
More than just a brand new man
And all my falling down now
It just don’t matter

I am a temple
My body is a temple
I am a temple

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
So what if I’m not worthy
You make me clean

 

Next To You

Without you I’m just
Water and dust
A disaster a face and a name
Who am I kidding
With out you I’m nothing at all

You catch when I fall
You return all my calls
And you’re never not around
When I need you
And I always do

On my own
I m more than just alone
I’m colder than religion
I’m colder than stone
Without you I’m
Another waste of time
Like words that only rhyme
But aren’t making any sense

Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breathe without you anymore

Without you I’m left
With just rocks in my chest
Aches and pains that will not recess
The worst is
Without you I’ve got nothing left to say
You sweeten my days with that light amber haze
And you never could get away
When I need you
And I always need you

On my own
I’m more than just alone
I’m colder than religion
I’m colder than stone
Without you I’m
Another waste of time
Like words that only rhyme
But aren’t making any sense

Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breathe without you any more

 

Walking In My Sleep

I feel like I’ve been walking in my sleep
Digging trenches in the pavement
With the soles of my feet
And I feel like I’ve been running on gasoline
I was so cold before I met you
I was as cold as a machine

So won’t you stay
Stay with me now
The cynical people
Of the world can drown
In a wake of your kindness
Beneath the weight of your grace
It’s more than I can take
And just walk away

I feel like I’ve been walking in my sleep
Chasing shadows, throwing punches
Like stones into the sea
So tell me haven’t I been breathing all these years
Was I a ghost before I met you
Or was I even real

 

How He Loves

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath
The weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these
Afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize how beautiful you are
And how great your affections are for me

Oh how he loves us so
Oh how he loves us
How he loves us so

Yeah he loves us
Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves

We are his portion
And he is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
And my heart burns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way

That he loves us
Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves us?Oh how he loves

 

Hold On To

You came dressed up like a sinner
So you drank my shame and you gave yourself away?I will lay beneath weight of this unrequited grace
that laid down in my place
There is a hope that will not disappoint you no
Will not let you down, will not let you down

I will not be moved
I’ll hold on to you

You grow beauty in my ashes
Sunlight in my sorrow
A garland for depression
You paint portraits on my mourning
Of hope and glory
With Oil and with joy
There is a hope that will not disappoint you no
Will not let you down, will not let you down

You, who are my hope
I will hold on to
You, who are my hope
I will hold on to

 

Dancing on the Doors

See the wall
See the writing on it
See the wind
See the one who rides upon it
See the mighty and the high all hang their head

He burns like the rage
Of a firmament fire
Falls with the weight
Of a jealous desire
Like a downpour knocking on the door
Of the dead

Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion

Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion
This is love

Hear the song sung
by the fiery tongues
Hear the bending bows
of the blood bought sons
Hear their voices in the flood
And lift your head

See the night roll over for the day and
See the movement of the heavenly parading
Like a downpour dancing on the doors
Of the sleeping and the dead

He comes
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion

It’s
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
Like rain falling over us
This ain’t no kind of religion
This is love
This is love
This is love

 

How He Loves (Alt Version)